Falling Apart

I don't know how much longer I can do this.........I am falling apart inside.......Over the summer when I was in Africa I was happier than I had ever been in my entire life.....and now I am going down hill and honestly it is scaring me.....I am falling deeper and deeper and deeper into my depression...and I don't know what to do anymore.........I'm getting worse and worse and not getting any better....my heart hurts so badly it literally aches.....I don't know what to do......I want to be saved....I want to be pulled out of this very dark and scary and unfortunately very real place that I am stuck........this is not only effecting my mind but it's beginning to effect my life...........I am an A+ student but right now I am incredibly distracted.....my grades are slipping....my world is slipping away.....it's like I don't even care anymore............I just want to escape from this dark place.....I feel like I'm constantly choaking and I just want to escape....I'm tired of feeling sick and tired and overwhelmed by all the crap this world is giving me.......I'm so tired of not trusting people and never having anything good work out in my life.....I feel so desperate and thirsty and tired.....my body literally hurts these days.....I just want to be saved.....I want help......but I don't think anyone can help me now.....I'm pretty sure that I am now past that point......I'm beginning to believe I'm destined to be like this forever and that's a reality I don't want to accept.....I'm begging you someone.....PLEASE HELP ME! I don't know what to do......all I know is I am falling deeper and deeper and I feel like pretty soon I'm not going to be able to make it out of this......
The Painting Warrior